I am helpless for I am 21 and I do not know. Nobody who is 21 knows. Even if they manage to look 16 and feel 36 by peculiar tricks of light. Is your life, like mine, an optical illusion? I want to be a bit of a kaleidoscope, and bits and pieces of colour. So exciting, but I may also be like you...colourblind...in a way. You know what I mean. But thank you.
Your beautiful heart is a delicious sundae.
PS- It's not about what you think it is, I think.